coming to sit with self

I’ve met you before.

You scared me.
I learned not to trust you.

And now you come to me
hand open
as though I would take it

You come to me
Fully Aware — you seem to suggest —
of the Hell you dragged me through

And you say
we need each other.

That my salvation
comes at the cost
of Forgiveness.

I am only angry because
I know you’re right.
I know you’re right because
I’ve been telling you to
Fuck Off
for years
and I’m exactly as scared as I was.

So ok. I’ll try it your way
and see
what happens
when we
join hands.

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Day 23 #pandowrimo @adriennemareebrown So much broke when the sickness came. So much unraveled. What was mended in that time? Socks? Relations? What was woven anew? @yourfriendkat

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