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coming to sit with self

I’ve met you before. 
You scared me.
I learned not to trust you.

And now you come to me
hand open
as though I would take it

You come to me 
Fully Aware  — you seem to suggest —
of the Hell you dragged me through

And you say 
we need each other.
That my salvation 
comes at the cost
of Forgiveness.

I am only angry because 
I know you’re right.
I know you’re right because 
I’ve been telling you to
Fuck Off 
for years 
and I’m exactly as scared as I was.

So ok. I’ll try it your way
and see 
what happens 
when we
join hands. 

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Day 23 #pandowrimo @adriennemareebrown So much broke when the sickness came. So much unraveled. What was mended in that time? Socks? Relations? What was woven anew? @yourfriendkat 


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