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How I Know Quitting Smoking Is For Real This Time

1) I am 6 hours into not smoking and pretty much everything is already on my shit list.
Exhibit A: all i want is for my hair to be a brown without brassy tones. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK? I will dye my hair blue black if i have to!
Exhibit B: Reiny & me "i mean, i don't know if they're all gonna want to have game night if they're just flying in." "oh, they will" "...are you sure about that? what do you mean?" "NAA NAA NAA QUITTING SMOKING IS AWESOME!"
2) My body has been trying to detox for weeks now. Normally one's lungs only try to clean themselves after you've quit for a few days. For the past few weeks my body has been trying to expel any loose phlegm it possibly can. Quoth Joe: It is too full of gunk. I don't think that's actually what Joe said.
3) So far this year, I've quit twice almost a month each. And I want practice not smoking before I go to grad school. Because who knows what that will bring.
4) I already told everyone I was going to ... so yeah. Trying not to mind all the candy I ate.
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